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Today...

... I should really study...I’m such a lazy bum. I planned to go to school today, but there’s no need to go because we’re done with the syllabus. But it's good to go and talk to friends about school work and stuff.
But then I thought... ah... why bother. Like they care anyway, like they’re going to show up. And then half an hour after the lecture had started I get a sms from a friend asked if I’m not coming to school today?
And I replied that I might go for math, and asked if he was and he said no. So then I thought; oh well, doesn't matter. I don’t understand him anyway. I just want to get out of here, to get away from all these people I see who don't care anyway.
Now that I got that out of my system....

Over to something else...
I read my cousin's blogg today. She talked about Zeal. That was a new word for me too.When I write zeal in word and look at synonyms/thesaurus it says: enthusiasm
passion
fanaticism
fervor
ardor
keenness
eagerness
apathy (antonym).

so it means something you're passionate about.And I look at the people around me and see what they thrive for, some are computer fanatics and have lost their lives that way, some are lost in some fantasy book, some are trapped in their lusty desires, some just don't have anything.I for one don't seem to think I have anything I’m passionate about. I'm quite interested in analyzing stuff and about feelings. Does that count you think? It's just something that's natural for me. I'm not currently studying psychology so I’m not getting any better at it.

My cousin talked about Paul's passion was God and Jesus. Everything else was rubbish. I have to think about this for a moment. It's kind of hard to grasp, for me at least. God and Jesus should obviously be the most important concern in your life, to try and live a Christian life. But how do you make it your passion? I guess that's what missionaries do, right? They work to spread Gods name in the world, to lead others to God, this is their passion. Some work to live, and some live to do this work. We're supposed to live to serve God, right? But I guess we all have different ways when serving God. Some write music, because music is their passion, but they also love God so they write music to praise God. So if this is the thing, to apply your passion to God, then I understand. Then to me it makes sense.
If I have misunderstood... someone enlighten me.

posted by the girl with no wings... @ 4:29 PM