Kids
So I went swimming today. It was really crowded there, two Italian families were there as well. There were to young girls, like 11 or something. They were really curious about me. Looking at me, and thinking that I hadn't noticed them, ha ha it was so funny. One of them came up to me and asked what my name was. And the other told me that I had really nice hair. It was flattering I guess. It was funny that they were so interested in me. Then when I had finished showering there was only one girl left there, the other family and the 2-end girl had left, the last one piped behind the wall where you shower, looking at me while I was doing my hair. Then when I left I put on my short sweater that I had over my top, she said: that's a really look jacket! And then I smiled at her and said that she could buy the same one in Cubus if she liked it that much. And then the mother said that they could go there next week. Funny :P I think the same thing kind of happened with the guys, the father and the brother of this girl were watching me and my father and brothers and my uncle when we were competing in the pool. It was kind of a weird family. But it made me realize that me and my family are very blessed, and sometimes we take it for granted. There's always someone that's admiring you, even though how hopeless you might think you are.
Woke up today, feeling irritated.
I wanted a good night sleep because I felt depressed yesterday, so I took some Melatonin to get a good knock out sleep, but I woke up twice because something was uncomfortable and because I felt I was dehydrating. So when I got up, I saw my mother off, she was going to go for a concert, and then I read a magazine, went up to my room and did a 45 min exercise, mostly stomach and arms were exercised because that's the places I want to form nicer muscles. Later I'm going to go swim, think I'll try 2.5 km today. If I'm to tired I'll just do 1 km. After I had done the 45 min exercise I took a nice cold shower and now I feel much better. Listening to Muse. I always feel better after exercising. Things seem more clear. But I really should eat something soon. So I guess I'll do that next. And I need to read some theory for that damn theory test in 2 weeks time. Make sure I pass that time. How annoying. It will be good to get into the water later.
Gratulerer med 21 års dagen Åsmund.
I want someone that understands me... To reassure me of things I'm insecure about... I want someone that has patience with me... And that won't leave me deserted alone... Life is hard when you don't have anyone to share it with...
What a day...
Today I went to take my theory test for car, ah... So terrible... I didn't pass... I don't get it how I could fail. I thought that I answered quite correctly... mu... But I can take it again on the 15 of may so I will do that. I don't like to fail things. I practiced and everything... At least I got a print out where it stated where my mistakes were. So I can practice on those headings.
so there's this guy that asked me out for dinner sometime... And I said I had to think about it... I feel its kind of too early... And I get very suspicious of people who show interest in me... Funny... I have to think about that for some more time...
and then, tomorrow I have a driving lesson, and I have to tell my driving instructor that I fail my theory :( muu... So for the rest of the day I'm going to find out what I got wrong, if I can still remember the questions from the test...
Today...
... I should really study...I’m such a lazy bum. I planned to go to school today, but there’s no need to go because we’re done with the syllabus. But it's good to go and talk to friends about school work and stuff.
But then I thought... ah... why bother. Like they care anyway, like they’re going to show up. And then half an hour after the lecture had started I get a sms from a friend asked if I’m not coming to school today?
And I replied that I might go for math, and asked if he was and he said no. So then I thought; oh well, doesn't matter. I don’t understand him anyway. I just want to get out of here, to get away from all these people I see who don't care anyway.
Now that I got that out of my system....
Over to something else...
I read my cousin's blogg today. She talked about Zeal. That was a new word for me too.When I write zeal in word and look at synonyms/thesaurus it says: enthusiasm
passion
fanaticism
fervor
ardor
keenness
eagerness
apathy (antonym).
so it means something you're passionate about.And I look at the people around me and see what they thrive for, some are computer fanatics and have lost their lives that way, some are lost in some fantasy book, some are trapped in their lusty desires, some just don't have anything.I for one don't seem to think I have anything I’m passionate about. I'm quite interested in analyzing stuff and about feelings. Does that count you think? It's just something that's natural for me. I'm not currently studying psychology so I’m not getting any better at it.
My cousin talked about Paul's passion was God and Jesus. Everything else was rubbish. I have to think about this for a moment. It's kind of hard to grasp, for me at least. God and Jesus should obviously be the most important concern in your life, to try and live a Christian life. But how do you make it your passion? I guess that's what missionaries do, right? They work to spread Gods name in the world, to lead others to God, this is their passion. Some work to live, and some live to do this work. We're supposed to live to serve God, right? But I guess we all have different ways when serving God. Some write music, because music is their passion, but they also love God so they write music to praise God. So if this is the thing, to apply your passion to God, then I understand. Then to me it makes sense.
If I have misunderstood... someone enlighten me.
weird day
Today has been interesting... I went to work... and it went so slow... I though there might be more people out shopping when there was such a good offer in the store, but apparently not. They’re all just walking in the streets for fun!Well, work sucked... and I was dead tired when we closed up, and I had to by dinner for my brothers and stuff, BUT today my mother called me at work and we had a nice moment, or like we talked about clothes because she's in another town at the moment and she wanted me to go to Cubus to compare some of the clothes and stuff. It sounds kind of funny but I really appreciated it... I like that she can call me and ask me to do stuff, and its fun! I had to go through the whole store to find what she was describing. I was really stressed because I only had a half hour break, but I liked it. Everyone in the store looked at me funny, especially the sales girl, haha it was so funny to see the faces of the people who must thing I’m crazy! But I felt that my mother and I were friends in a way. That’s not something that's happened often but even though today sucked... just that she called made it much better in the end :)
Destiny
How much control do you really have on your life? How much just happens to you without your permission? What happens when something enormous happens to you and you have no control over it? And what effect do your decisions really have? Are they just minor things that put small details in your life? Or do they create your life? Are the major things just randomized happenings that come your way? Or do they have some meaning? That if you were to go down this road, will change your life? Or maybe you will change someone else’s life?
This is how I see it: When you were born, you started to walk on a path. On this path, you will meet roads that you can choose to take and some that will be revealed specifically for you. You can choose to walk on the road that was revealed, or you can choose to take one of the other roads. But sure enough there will be roads that will be revealed to you that might lead you away from things you are familiar with: something exciting, something new, a challenge for you to embark on.
If you walk with God, and let him participate in your life, he will make sure to protect you, and lead you out of harms way. He will reveal more roads for you to walk on, more choices for you to choose. He will be there to guide you to where you're destined to be, to be what you are destined to be.
It is not that God controls your life, he does not. But he knows you better than anyone else, so it might seem like he is controlling your life. He knows what you want to do deep inside, what you want to be. And if you trust him, he will surely help you to be what you truly want to be. Because God loves you, he is proud of you, his creation, a perfect individual with its own mind and its own way of thinking. The feelings this person may produce in others, and what feelings that may be produced in him. He wants you to be what you want to be, and he will gladly help you to reach your goal. So if you put your trust in him, let him guide you to your goal, you will not be disappointed. No ones route is exactly the same. We all have different views and different ambitions. We all have different things we want to experience.
The choices you make are yours. You can make what ever you want out of life, God will just provide the way for you to obtain it. There is no shame in accepting help. The only thing that comes out from it, is the happiness and joy that both you and God will share together. Remember to thank him, for what he is doing. Remember who created you. Remember who loves you. Remember that the destiny you are heading to, is your own. God has not chosen it for you, because God loves you so much, that he let you choose for yourself. He gave his beloved son so that we all have a chance to be with God. What you are destined to be here on earth, for whatever purpose and for the choices that comes your way, God will help you through it all.Just put your faith and trust in him and destiny will reveal itself.
Be Joyful in hope, patient in afflication, faithful in prayer.
- Romans 12:12
Someone so sweet...
Someone who makes you happy,
Someone who can always make you smile,
Someone who makes you feel pretty,
Someone who cares if you eat or not,
Someone who puts your need first,
Someone who can make you laugh,
Someone who explains things to you,
Someone who never makes you do things you don't want to do...
Someone who would miss you...
Someone who was always good to you,
Someone who you could always depend on,
Someone you never had to ask twice,
Someone you would miss... if he didn’t exist.
- T.E.H
So disappointing...
Today I feel like I started the day with the wrong attitude. Or rather... I ended up with the wrong attitude. I started the day planning to read for my driver’s license test, but I ended up not doing it at all. Instead I watched Gilmore girls and naruto. And I went for busjinka budo taijitsu (is that how you write it?). And I was the only girl, and the only one having a hard time catching up. I don't like being slow... in addition to being the only girl. All they guys are so fare ahead that it kind of FEELs like I’m stupid. They should take more care and go slower when someone new comes into the club... I never want to go back again... I feel so humiliated... and weak. I hate feeling weak.
The good part of this is that at least I got to exercise. 'cause I’ve been so lazy lately. Been studying allot and haven't bothered to go to the studio. But tomorrow I’m going to go. At least then I don't have to be with anyone, I just do my thing.
Ah... need to go shower... and eat some dinner... late dinner again...
Finally done with my physics lab report....
I’m so happy that I’m finished... I had to learn least square method all over again because I had forgotten it, and then I found out that I was supposed to used Graphical analysis instead... i could have been done ages ago!
Oh well... what to do...
I got a call really early today from work, my boss asked me if I was really going to have 7 weeks of vacation, and I said what?? I only put down from the 19 of June to the 16 of July. So he said ok good... because I was worried you had become cheeky with us... hehe... oh dear... so i said no, i would never be that rude. And he laugh and said yeah he knows, I’m the only one that isn't^^. So he was going to correct it, and while still talking on the phone with me, another colleague of mine said ops... the other 3 weeks was his holiday, so it was all resolved. =) so my boss was going to go pound the other guy, theoretically speaking =) they're always having fun at work.
My brother and my mother have formed a cleaning group. My mother does the vacuuming and my brother holds the broom, then when she switched he holds the vacuum... he never gets to do anything :P my mothers really particular about the cleaning. So my brothers just following her around the house for about 2-3 hours...
Today the plan is to study for my driver’s license theory. Since I only have a few days to do it and then take the test in order to be in time for my next driving lesson. I hope I do well so that I don't have to do it over again... really bad... there's a 2 month waiting list to take the practical, and they can't order the practical before you've done the theory... makes sense... so I have to get it over and done with. My brothers are a head of my... how embarrassing... Need to get it done now. Also if I don't get it done this year there's a new law that says you have to start all over again and take 36 compulsory lessons! 36!!! Must be mad! So definitely... I have to pass the first time.
Where to find what your 4-code MBTI means.
http://www.mbtitoday.org/typechars.html
So... what is MBTI?
Here's the URL for it:
http://www.personalitypathways.com/type_inventory.html
this was my result:
ENFJ
Warm, empathetic, responsive, and responsible. Highly attuned to the
emotions, needs, and motivations of others. Find potential in
everyone, want to help others fulfill their potential. May act as
catalysts for individual and group growth. Loyal, responsive to praise
and criticism. Sociable, facilitate others in a group, and provide
inspiring leadership.
^_^ this is me.
so now people can see who's behind the writing :)
have a nice day :)
Faith
Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
- Hebrews 11:1
Faith is powerful, no one should forget it.
Prayer is powerful and should also not be forgotten.
Pray as often you feel is necessary to be close to God, because he enjoys it so much.
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