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I realized that I'm not ready for the all serious relationship that i've always wanted. I guess I just want to know that when I get older, that i'll have someone. someone who don't mind quarks and that I feel free to be me.
But i've come to realize that there's a reason why we don't get married at 16. we need to experience life, to learn about all the bad things that happen as well as the good things. we need knowledge, we need wisdom, to share our lives with someone. or else things will go wrong all the time and life will be misserable. we need to aqcuire understanding. these three things, knowledge, wisdom and understanding... are things that take time. and we need to take the time to get it.

I realized this when this guy asked me out for dinner. He's just a few years older than me, and i thinkt he's starting to get scared that he might end up being alone. He reminds me of Tommy actually, which made a big red light go off in my head. The problem with Tommy is that he thinks he knows all there is to know about life, and that he now wants to pass it on to others and be a "grown-up". i think that's a bad idea, to get so full of yourself that you think you know everything there is to know, you never stop learning stuff.
so when this guy asked me out, and that i got that image of Tommy in my head, this is what i realized; without knoweldge, wisdom and understanding, you will never be happy, even though you end up with someone in the end.

posted by the girl with no wings... @ 1:23 AM